
For an average child, someone else’s light
touch on their skin would go almost unnoticed. But, for a child with
Sensory Processing Disorder, or SPD, any sensory stimulation not
invited or prepared for can be overwhelming and even painful to endure.
My six-year-old daughter, Jaimie’s, form of
SPD affects all of her sensory systems—from moderately to severely
so—and even a simple act of affection is enough to send her into the
throws of a meltdown. To illustrate, when Jaimie was about
two-and-a-half, Jordhan, her ten-month old sister, had developed a
normal curiosity for everything her big sister did. One afternoon as
Jaimie played preschool games on the computer, Jordhan pulled herself
to stand, her hands resting on my leg, to watch Jaimie play.
That day Jaimie craved stimulation so the
room echoed with noise—television blasting, Wiggles playing on the
stereo, and her computer game beeping. Jaimie’s eyes quickly scanned
around the room every few seconds, but amazingly, she was still able to
concentrate on her game. Then it happened: Jordhan’s hand slipped onto
Jaimie’s leg.
Jordhan’s light touch caused Jaimie’s
breathing to get more and more rapid until she was almost
hyperventilating. After a moment, Jaimie stuck her face right down into
Jordhan’s.
“No touch me, Jordy. Get off!”
Jaimie screeched, then shoved Jordhan, knocking her on her back.
As I tried telling Jaimie not to yell at or
push Jordhan, she threw the computer mouse, ran over to the couch and
released a long scream, holding her leg as if Jordhan’s touch scalded
her. I’d learned from experience not to touch her as it only seemed to
intensify her reaction. With tears in my eyes and pain in my heart, I
watched Jaimie beat her head into the couch cushion repeatedly. Through
Jaimie’s muffled sobbing, she uttered a faint, “Mama…help me.”
That was a regular scene in our house. When
Jaimie’s behavior worsened to the point she’d be having fits for hours
at a time every day, we were finally directed to an Early Intervention
Program. After only one home visit, an Occupational Therapist (OT)
named Donna Gervais was able to deduce Jaimie’s behaviour to SPD.
“Most
of us have the ability to tune things out in our environment so we
aren’t bombarded with sensory information,” Gervais said. “We don’t
listen to the squeaks, creaks, bumps or other weird noises going on
everywhere around us; we don’t smell every stinky or nice smell in our
house, and we try to focus on what is in front of us so we aren’t
distracted. Kids like Jaimie are incapable of this ‘filtering ability’”.
With this realization I knew Jaimie heard
every sound; smelled every smell and saw everything because she’s not
able to tune anything out. Imagine how terrifying it would be to have
to take in all that information but not know what to do with it! I get
upset if the phone rings while my youngest daughter Sophie screams, the
older children run around me asking for different things and the
microwave all go off at the same time. No wonder Jaimie had such
terrible breakdowns.
Even
though I knew Jaimie needed outside help, to be honest, I was very
nervous about allowing an “outsider” to interact with Jaimie. It could
take up to a week for her to get over the stimulation from her therapy
sessions and there were so many times I just wanted to throw in the
towel, screaming, “Enough! I can’t stand watching my baby screaming and
crying. I’ll take care of her on my own like I always have.” But, in my
heart, I knew this wasn’t true.
What
I’d been doing before Donna’s arrival wasn’t truly helping, though.
Jaimie needed her system to experience sensations so she’d learn how to
cope within the outside world. What I’d always done was allowed Jaimie
to avoid what bothered her. How was that going to help her learn how to
function? She wouldn’t have been able to enter and manipulate every
environment to her comfort level the way I’d always done for her. But,
at the same time, certain things could be tweaked so she’d feel better
about trying.
Donna’s
method of sensory integration therapy—teaching children how to cope
with the information their brains aren’t able to process—was working
within a child’s comfort zones and interests. For example, she
understood Jaimie’s rigidity to changes in her routine and her immense
struggles with transition. (When we moved from an apartment to a
two-bedroom townhouse, for example, Jaimie not only needed to have her
room set up exactly the
same, but, it took her nearly a year just to get used to our new place.
She became so anxious if I’d simply moved things around to clean around
them—thinking we were moving again—she’d melt down.) But Jaimie also
loved drawing, reading and crafting and Donna used these interests in
the therapy process.
Jaimie had to slowly get used to someone
working with her so we had chosen at-home therapy at first. Donna
brought a new, fun, sensory-rich craft (Jaimie’s favorite activity) and
a book to read afterwards (the best activity for calming her) for each
visit.
Donna
also worked with Jaimie’s need for consistency and routine by coming on
the same day every week, at the same time, with the same over-sized bag
Jaimie knew was filled with fun stuff to do. The plan was brilliant. In
addition to Jaimie’s SPD, which was quite severe in her younger years,
she also suffered with high anxiety. So the activities Donna tried kept
both of these struggles in mind: stimulating her sensory systems but
also providing Jaimie options to help calm her anxiety to reduce a
meltdown.
Some
activities Donna used included:
• Sensory
rich crafts, such as cut and pastes with various textured materials,
pompoms, feathers, sparkles, scented markers and other objects for her
to “feel.” Jaimie was, and still is, highly tactile-sensitive and
avoids many sensations.
• Scratch
and Sniff books. Jaimie didn’t always like these books, depending on
the smell. She’s also highly olfactory-sensitive.
• Scented
and non-scented PlayDoh to stimulate Jaimie’s fine motor skills,
tactile and olfactory. Donna also used this as a way to help Jaimie to
“squeeze” out her anxiety/frustration.
• Got
Jaimie to use finger crayons (crayons that slip onto the ends of her
fingers.) Jaimie didn’t like anything on her hands or fingers but tried
it out occasionally.
• “Squished”
Jaimie. Donna sat on the couch with Jaimie behind her then squished
into her. This sort of deep pressure made Jaimie actually feel better
when she was up. We still use this method.
• Got
Jaimie to do activities like crazy dancing, rolling on a yoga ball,
jumping on a mini tramp or air mattress, run around the room or spin.
These are all activities Jaimie loved but aren’t always safe or
appropriate to do. Donna used these things after Jaimie did the more
sensory activities to release her anxiety. This taught Jaimie to exert,
rather than introvert and lash out, hurt herself or meltdown.
• Jaimie
was also very oral so Donna gave Jaimie things like chewy tubes, straws
and suggested giving her crunchy snacks when she sought such
stimulation. (Jaimie has always been more on the avoiding side of SPD
but does seek once in awhile, especially with smell and orally.)
• Taught
Jaimie to say things like, “Help, please,” “Too close,” or “Yuck
smell.” so we’d understand when something around her bothered her. It
was like staying one step ahead of her meltdowns.
• Taught us
strategies to help Jaimie through necessary hygiene activities, such as
teeth or hair brushing, bathtime and getting dressed. Things like
allowing Jaimie to help choose her clothes or getting her to brush her
own teeth seemed to make her feel better because the task was then
being done the way she was comfortable with.
As much help as Donna was—from giving us a
name for Jaimie’s struggles, to teaching all of us better ways of
coping with it, to being a strong resource of information all the way
to providing connections to other services Jaimie desperately needed—we
had to end sessions with Donna after about a year. Jaimie got so far in
her therapy, then regressed back to the point she was at even before
beginning with Donna (Regression in therapy is something we still
struggle with to this day.)
Despite having to end OT sessions with
Donna, however, our family had become so much more enriched having had
her there for a little while. Without her we’d never have gotten to
where we are today in terms of resources, coping methods and strength.
And we’d still have a little girl still terrified of what waited for
her outside our front door with no desire to find out. Jaimie may still
be anxious and nervous about the new and still easily overly stimulated
but she tries and I’m so
grateful to Donna for that. That experience makes me less nervous for
when OTs will be working with Jaimie during the next school year, and
most likely, the rest of her young life.
At this stage, it’s still tiring,
frustrating and a daily struggle coping with Jaimie’s SPD. But, little
positive changes have shone through. Near Christmas of 2007, I received
the best present from Jaimie I’d ever had or will ever receive: She ran
across the room, wrapped her tiny arms around my neck and gave me a
hug—a real hug, not just merely placing her head on me and saying,
“Hug!”—and said, “I love you, Mama.”
I can count on one hand how many times she’s
allowed herself to do it again but I hold onto that one hug, knowing
what we’re doing is reaching her, even if we can’t always see it. It
gives me hope.